Take each day like it's your last

Hello and sorry for not blogging sooner, lots going on here.

My hero, the love of my life, my sweet Dad has been diagnosed with stage 4 cancer and has been given maybe a year, if chemo and radiation works, less if it does not.

He also has diabetes and this has caused problems with that and I now have to give him insulin shots. I spend most of my days getting him his medicine, food, shots, and getting him to his radiation treatments each day and Dr and lab appts.

My mom bless her heart is hanging in there and also doing all she can, I worry about her because she has high blood pressure and it's tough for her to watch her sweetheart get ill.

I am so glad I am here and able to help, financially I am screwed but ya know....to hell with it. I'd rather spend time with my Dad now that he needs me and I have faith that all will work out.

I watch my Dad each day reflecting on his life and wanting to do better with the time he has left, it kind of reminds me of that song "you should live like you were dying". He stops and talks to little children, he says hello to everyone he sees, he watches more sunrises and gives everyone hugs. I wonder and watch and think that I should be doing the same and not wait for the end to enjoy and make a difference in this world.

Some days I just want to keep my head in my pillow and cry and cry till it doesn't hurt any more but then I remember that it isn't about me, it's about making my Dad comfortable and making his every day a brighter day.

So family and friends, I love you all truly and whole heartily believe that. I want to give you all a big huge, I want to be there for you when you need someone, I'd take a pie in the face if it will put a smile on yours, if I had it all I'd give it all to you. Watch the sunrises in your life and listen to the old guys and play with the little guys.

Here we are and aren't we a scarry bunch!

I was a corpse bride...spooky

Oh the wonderful world of computer problems

So about four days ago I went to log onto the internet and couldn't, then after multiple calls to the verizon tech support I was told that my v-card was not responding and that I would need a new one....and OF COURSE the warranty expired last month...go figure. So I had to buy another one which extended the contract out another year OF COURSE. So finally I am back into the swing of things....they do have a rebate offer but OF COURSE it is going to take upto six weeks to get it back.

On another note, I am so excited it it is almost Thanksgiving and I'll get to see family and have lots of laughs and hugs.

November, what a great month!

O.k. so the holiday season is here, and the best part is seeing family and friends.

I feel like so much has happened these past week or two that there just isn't enough space to write about it all. Suffice to say the only thing constant is change.

I am yet again re-grouping, re-dedicating, re-vamping, re-organizing, and re-winding.

I wish someone would tell me what I'm supposed to be when I grow up!

A cool fall wind has begun to blow down here, the tall grass has all turned yellow, the mountains are a deep set blue, the mesquite trees are all loosing their leaves and look like upside down roots. It's time to get ready for winter and pull my sweaters forward and t-shirts backwards, find all my woolly warm socks, and plug in the electric blankets.

Now if only I could find me a tall handsome prince to snuggle up with and drink hot coco.

I love you all and hope everyone is well and happy.

Must be in the wind!

O.k. so, we are quarantined out here, Winter is sick, Aydin is getting sick, my brothers kids are all sick, Ala feels sick and me,,,,I'm just keepin my fingers crossed that I don't get a hold of anything. Talk about cabin fever! We sit in the house all day watching kid shows and running to the bathroom and passin out the cold medicine. I AM IN DESPERATE NEED OF ADULT CONVERSATION!! I think Dora the Explorer is stalking me, GAbba Gabba is bent on driving me insane, and I think I'm starting to have a crush on Spong Bob, with his spunky little can do attitude....see there I go again thinking about his cute little square head. The weather is getting cooler and the wind is blowing a little more so not so many critters scuttering about, that is except the havalinas, we are seeing them allot more. Any who,,,,hopefully everyone will get better and I can get out and save what's left of my sanity.

My Childhood Heaven

Heaven is a sycamore tree in the middle of a wash with an old swing rope, it’s running with my sister bare foot in cut off shorts and the suns shining warm rays on the bridge of my nose and top of my lip, it’s the sound of laughter tickling the air and the warm breeze bending the tall yellow grass and slapping the giant sycamore leaves, it’s the cackle of the chickens and a black and white dog barking at a skinny little red haired boy on the hill. It is the smell of old black walnut trees, sun licked river rocks, and pinto beans cooking slowly on the stove that come from a faded green A Frame house on a drift of wind. It’s tree lizards, cow tanks, water snakes, my father’s old Pontiac on blocks, a brick fire place, a big grey cat named Thomas, Mom and Dad dancing in the kitchen, and knowing that each day will be the same.

Weekend re-cap and projects

So another wonderful weekend with Kalia and Koa coming to visit us. General Conference was so cool, it was one of those that you hung on their every word. It was really inspiring I swear I cried like 20 times...I just need to remember not to wear makeup on Conference weekends because it's just a waste. So my overall impression was that times are hard and getting harder and that we do not need to feel we are alone and that we are strong enough to overcome and to be a happy productive person no matter what and to always, always, remember to say your prayers and ask the Lord for help always.....O.K. so this isn't new and I know I should be doing this every day but sometimes life just gets distracting and I forget to really practice this and think I'm smart enough to figure it out on my own without asking the Lord if this is what he wants me to do and for the help I need. I guess this is one reason why we have Conferences, so that we are reminded that Heavenly Father loves us and remember what it is we should be doing.

O.k., so my project this week is to get started on the house trim. 1st I have to scrap off all of the old trim with a wire brush, 2nd brush primer on, and 3rd paint. The weather has been allot cooler so it shouldn't be too hot and miserable. And, I'm going to make a quilt, Kalia dropped off the material so I'll get started today. O.k., two projects.....yea for me!

Happy, happy! Love all of you!